The results were NEGATIVE for cancer.
Every time I hear that it is negative, I take a huge sigh of relief!
I have come to the conclusion that if,
by some chance, the cancer does return,
I will have a mastectomy.
I think about just having it now, while I am well, so that I can be done with the worry.
The hot flashes are starting to get on my nerves too.
Not being able to sleep the whole night through because the hot flashes are constantly waking me up!!
Uggggggggggggggh!!
I have come to realize just what the "life changing" part of Cancer is - all of this bullsh*t that comes with it!!
STRESS
Stress from worry.
Worry about re-occurrence.
Scars (and trying to avoid looking at them.)
Constant thinking.
Sleeplessness.
Sleeping pills (so your mind will stop spinning.)
Headaches from sleeping pills.
Doctors appointments - every 3 months.
Mammograms.
MRIs.
Clinic appointments - every month.
Shots.
Etc., Etc., Etc...........
Some days I just wanna yell,
"STOP, I've had enough already!!!!!"
Just think, in 4 1/2 more years I can yell that!!!
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